Let Them Rest In Peace

I don't like looking at old pictures, they're just reminders of friends lost

Memories brought to life framed on a wall, is all we could have been

Time takes it's toll as we're paying for the cost

What happened to those people?

It seems so long ago, but don't be confused, it was just yesterday

As quick as a flip of the wrist waving your hand goodbye out the window

Who would have known?

As fast as a sunrise, something too will set

Let It Rest in Peace

Let Them Rest in Peace

Nine years goes so fast, I don't know that girl anymore

I often wonder where she went?

With her pigtails and backwards baseball caps

The simplicity that comes with being naive, I know We miss it

I know They do

They shined with the light from the Sun, but it's to late to head North, the storm has already come

So we close our blinds from the outside world

Let em flee, be free?

That's what They thought was freedom

Finding themselves in the midst of everyone else

The only thing They found was deceit, guiding further from Their true heartbeat

Pieces of Themselves Stolen

I don't like looking at old pictures

Set The Fire To The Third Bar

I keep telling myself that most things happen for a reason. I guess i find comfort in the idea that although tons of things seem to be going wrong, there must be some explanation behind it all, a simple safety net to fall back on. It's easier to think that way. Nobody likes to face the truth all the time. Mostly because it can be unruly and unkind, and it has the talent to break a person. With that being said, we stigmatize it and rather make an excuse to lie, instead of actually having to face what's coming our way. I suppose the thing that bothers me most, is the fact that EVERYBODY does it! We all fall guilty of making this crime, and "we" are each others victims. WAKE UP PEOPLE, don't you see it?! I know I'm not the only one who feels this way, because it makes absolutely no sense. 

Why is it so hard to just say what we truly feel? Why do we constantly have to justify why something did, or did not happen? Why can't we just let it be what it is, accept it for what it's worth, and then move on to the next thing? I'd love to say I have the answer to all of these questions, but then I'd be lying (cough* cough*). There definitely is a reason as to why these have remained such an enigma. I've heard people say that, "Some things aren't meant to be answered." 

The only way to feel free, is to simply say what you need to say. Don't have preconceived motives hiding behind important conversations. Only you and me can change it, and who knows... if we're lucky, it'll catch like wildfire!

The Sky was Crystal Blue...

It's crazy how things turn out. You meet a person and automatically whether you like it or not, within a few minutes, you've already made up your mind about them. We judge, we lie, we hurt. The only thing you wish could have happened, never does, and that's when the end is always disappointing. There was a study once, seeing what percentage of people would want to know the day of their death. 96% said no and only 4% said yes. The sad thing is, tomorrow is never promised, but we live as if it is. We act cruel and don't care about one another, because the sun will rise tomorrow the same way it did this morning. What we need to understand, is that when God brings someone into our lives, we need to cherish the time spent. Love every second while it lasts, and when it ends...look back with a smile in knowing that there was a reason for it. Maybe we may not know the reason now, but one day it'll come, and it'll wipe the hurt away. 

I'd like to say that I'm not hurt, that it doesn't matter, that what you've heard is true...but then I'd be lying to you. I am hurt, it does matter, and you can fabricate anything you'd like to make yourself feel better, but God will shine the truth for us all. 

This isn't how the story should end. It's not what i had planned, nor did you. When i saw you first, 1000 things crossed my mind, but all were amazing! Most people would change their minds now, but i wont. I know what you're feeling, although you say something different, something cruel. I know what you're thinking because i feel it too. I know what you truly want or wanted just a day ago, because i wanted that same thing. But i know that after the way you've treated me, some things will simply have to change. 

I can hear what you say. Say what you'd like about me, because all it is... is talk. I'll let it happen. While you're too proud to let it all come down, I'll just sit and wait. I'm used to that. 

If someone came and asked me about you, i still wouldn't say a bad thing. I would smile in knowing that before the storm, the sky was crystal blue, and we were there beneath it... together. That's how i remember you.

I wish you would do the same.

This is for you

I told you i'd write you one, so here it goes

hold my head high as my chest wants to fall

yet there's nobody here that's left to call

it's easier to just Stop.

Feeling like i have something more to shake

all the while, still nothing to take

say hello but say your goodbyes

it's all you really wanted, right?

The ones you like, are Not like me

maybe one day you'll see

from here to there, find the one that'll fill that space

the place i don't

i hope it's great, thats what i wish

maybe it's Fate or God?

maybe just life

walk in, take a good look, because the door is shutting behind you.

Don't go, I'm confused

you are too

don't be scared

things happen... they happen and then happen again

but i swore the last time was the last time

so I'm sorry but the present will pay the price for the past

Never forget what you really want

and always say what you want to say

two blank weeks can make things erase

so now both will be going at a different pace

i'll miss it

"It was just a song" that was the last thing i said.

A Cut Above The Rest

This morning i woke up, tired and excited to see if i made the cut. I stood next to 25 other hopeful finalist, each holding their breath trying to keep a smile. The crowd was filled with faces of the people i love the most. I tried to focus my attention on them so my anxiety would flee. I held one single Red Rose as I waited to hear my name... one after the next, time passed, and my name was never called. I simply smiled and walked off the stage, not because i wanted to, but because that was the right thing to do.  Many of us have this ongoing idea of what is "worth" waiting for. I guess somethings that we wait for, will simply never come. Knowing that, we all still take the risk, we wait anyhow, we dream anyhow, we hope anyhow... and ultimately i think that's what keeps us all going. This unexpected part of life that only God knows the true answer to. It's the waiting that makes whatever happen or NOT happen, truly worth while. During times like these, all i can do is give it to God. I know he has a plan for us all, so tonight i'll fall asleep, tired and excited to see what will happen next. 

I've been waiting for you

I've been waiting for you. There you are, i can see you now. You're still close but far. What's that in your eyes? Why do you seem distant? Take whatever is covering you, off. Let me see what's underneath. I'll show you mine, if you show me yours first. Here i am, just me, take it or leave it. I won't be hurt. Never worry, because i've been waiting for this. Tick tock, the time slowly catches your heart.